By Aisha North
http://aishanorth.wordpress.com/2012/04/07/the-manuscript-of-survival-part-115/
Do not despair sweet ones, even if you think you do not see any of the oft mentioned changes you have been waiting for for so long. You see, you can in so many ways be blind to your own magnificence, and this in turn will make you lose faith in yourself. You think you do not make any progress, and that everything is as dense – or maybe even denser – as it has been for such a long time, and this way, you end up with a heavy heart indeed. Well, lighten up sweet ones, you cannot even begin to imagine the magnitude of change you have already accomplished.
Please understand us when we say that this is in no way meant as any criticism, we just want to help you see yourselves more clearly than the perhaps overly murky image you have of yourselves. Your mind can and will play many a trick on you, and it is not unheard of that it can manifest so much cobwebs that it literally hides away the brilliance of your soul, and this has turned away many a weary soul. It is hard to keep your focus on the brightness inside at times such as these, when the density of your surroundings keeps pressing you further and further into a corner. At least, that is exactly what this process feels like to so many of you. You are as if suspended between a rock and a hard place, and the grinding and grounding of all of these outside and inside forces can wear down many a brave soul. Just remember, this whole process, even if it makes you feel far, far older than your physical age is in so many ways, is indeed the same process that will turn a grain of sand into an ageless, bright and shiny pearl inside the seemingly unassuming outer layer of a humble mollusc.
In other words, this process in itself with all of its challenges both of the emotional and yes, very physical kind, can make many a brave heart flounder and go under. And that is only to be expected, as it is indeed very hard to see the reality of this process. You can in other words have a hard time seeing your own progress, because it becomes almost obscured by that everyday grind of constantly striving and fighting to keep your foothold on a road that could not be more rocky. It is almost like every step you take carries you further into a wilderness that makes the view even more restricted, and that is why we are here following your every step. Not in order to check your progress, because we cannot and will not do anything that will make you lose your momentum. No, we are here to be that constant reminder of your greatness, as it is only for the lucky few to be able to keep that focus amongst this ever denser jungle of tentacles clawing and scratching at you from every side trying their best to keep you back and hold you down. This constant fight in itself can be taxing enough, but you also have to cope with the weariness of a physical body that at times almost refuses to take just one more step.
To sum it up: You have all covered so much ground and risen in elevation these last few months, but due to the clouds and underbrush covering up your field of vision, you feel almost like you are lost in an impenetrable wilderness. Again, nothing could be further from the truth, but we do understand those falling under the spell of this thick layer of obscurity. Therefore, we will do our utmost to help you feel your way through this dense fog, because you are the ones propelling yourselves forward, and you are doing an excellent job of it, but the forces of counter resistance are doing their best to hide this fact from you. It does no good to open your eyes you feel, because then you only see even more of this dense underbrush crowding in. Well, close your eyes sweet ones, and FEEL into your surroundings. Then you can mayhaps discover the fact that the air has already cleared and the steepness of the hill has already started to give way to a much more easily travelled incline.
